Life unfolding

At first impression, people think I'm crazy. On second thought, they all realize that it's a great thing for me. And you know? I felt the same way too. It's crazy, but it's also Great! I'm jumping out into an unknown place with the promise of my dream job, and while I'm scared, it's a fear worth braving. I'll be working as a sound designer for the sequel of my favourite game of all time, and I'll be away from the one who drives insane. I know it sounds like a silly priority, but getting away from her has always been the number one thing to take care of on my list. SO! I'm doing it, I'm going, going, (not quite gone yet but soon to be) GONE!

I'm leaving behind a lot of things, and I'm not talking about possessions. My car, all the goodies I hoard to keep my sanity, and everything I've worked hard to acquire, none of those matter. I am leaving behind familiarity with this place, all the people who mean a lot to me, and probably what psychs me out the most, my pregnant friend. AHH! I know Saa laughed at me and said it's not my child, but I'm just as jittery, if not more, than the expectant mother. I try not to worry her about this issue, because, well, she doesn't need to have another stressor. Luckily, I know she's well taken care of and she'll be along just fine.

On the topic of leaving people behind, there's a certain somebody who doesn't "know" about it yet, although I'm pretty sure she does and just hasn't said anything. I gave her plenty of preparation for this news, actually, so let's just hope she doesn't overreact. Missing people will be an issue for me. I'll be nearer to Seki, no matter how ridiculous the idea! But I'm not a social person anyway, being alone is all right for me. I spend Miyata's birthday alone every year, don't I?

There is still so much to take care of and plan before I leave. Tomorrow, I'll find out whether or not I'm eligible for Lasik. Eep! I better not miss VBS because of this though, I was really looking forward to it too.

I haven't done a list of Thankful Three's in so long, time to pick that up again. Even if for just one day.

Wednesday Thankful Three
1. The opportunity to have my dream job!
2. The ability to feel, no matter which way it flows.
3. Faith in God to take care of me.

Ah, Nao song so beautiful and yet so painful. "Suki na no ni...."