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Listening to: "Dice" - Takahashi Naozumi Plug: Associated Press: Honda connects brain thoughts with roboticsOh that is awesome, if not a little disturbing. But hey, WAY COOL! I don't want to wear something that big to just to open my garage door though, remotes serve their purpose. However, if I can remote control my garage from work by plopping on that helmet, then that's another story. ::cackles:: Weirdness aside, today is a relatively bright day considering I had massive blood loss this morning. Nosebleeds are no fun, they leave me feeling weak and drained. It might be nice to be a vampire sometimes, so I can directly replenish my blood supply. Okay, really ending the weird talk now. Tuesday Thankful Three1. Chewing gum, yum! 2. This past weekend for the break from everything, good and bad. 3. God, for being in control when I cannot do everything myself. Reverend Keith's sermon made me think about an extremely touchy subject for me - Control (with a capital C!). Being a J (Judging/Rational) versus a P (Perceiving/Irrational) behaviour person, I'm somewhat of a control maniac. In his sermon, he discussed knowing when to let go and let God take control. Ah, still don't know how to do it, can only pray about it. "Lord grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change,
The courage to change the things I can, and
The wisdom to know the difference."-- Saint Francis of Assisi
Listening to: "Sweet Secret" - Kishio Daisuke This weekend was a blast, with the only downside being that I got sick. Still came to work though, heh, can't afford not to be here. Flight to and fro San Jose is so short, totally unlike my usual flights that last a few full length movie's worth. Weird. Never knew how easy domestic flights are. Saa and Kimi fed me lots of steak and music over the weekend, so happy! Playing Rock Band was fun to watch, but I myself am the ultimate phail LOL. The Corda sheet music box makes us all very happy people. *_* I revisited a bunch of songs I haven't played in ages and then some. The three tenors on DVD was awesome, makes me sad that I missed their live performance last weekend! Some of the songs were really touching, ended up crying a bit. "Leaving on a Jet Plane" is so beautiful and bittersweet. ::sniffles:: The original compositions were all so good, we just don't find much music like that these days. Even if I'm not particularly a fan of the guitar, these guys are made of pure awesomesauce. We went to Taco Bell for lunch then karaoke afterwards, woohoo FUN! We wanted to go to their parents' symphonic concert afterwards, but I was so dead tired and didn't want to pass out during the performance that I opted for staying home. I have no idea what happened after that too, brain shut off.... We watched some SNL? Anyway, we had church on Sunday and there was this really yummy sesame cookie! *_* Yummy Mexican food for lunch, bummed around chatting and recounting stories with Saa, then off to airport. Well, that has got to be the worst synopsis I have ever typed up, but I'm rather drained from being sick. I think I'm going to buy some oatmeal after work. Almost forgot to mention, it was my dear Daisaku's birthday on Saturday, and so we celebrated a little by playing my stash of Daisaku music. ::cackles:: STILL CELEBRATING!!! ♥♥♥ Happy Birthday to Kishio Daisuke!!! ♥♥♥ Because my giant hamster deserves some love too. Just don't listen to his Hyakka Seiran track. ♥
I'm booked! Thanks to Kimi for helping me out with my flight, ::SQUISHGLOMPLUFFLE:: I'm flying to San Jose tomorrow evening! Leaving work early at 3pm and no lunch, woes, but they'll feed me when I get there! I can't wait to see everybody again, YAY!! So exciting, albeit the last minute planning which usually would bring hectic anxiety to my plate. This is my first non-international flight, believe it or not, and I'm a little wary about what to do and what documentation I need to bring. In other news, I received my new driver's license in the mail yesterday. I'm smiling weird, again, but hey, better than the old one. Okay. How sad is this, we Google-map our competitors' locations so we can look at their warehouses, even though the pictures are outdated. Yup, that's where I work.
Listening to: "Sweet Secret" - Kishio Daisuke Everything in Moderation. I totally did not follow that rule yesterday and am in certain distress today for it. I ate *way* too much!!! It was so yummy and yet so horrible at the same time! Sigh. I've been humbled. Everything I tried to eat today caused instataneous distress, woes! Lesson relearned. This weekend, I want to be able to fly up to visit Saa and Kimi, but due to lack of preparation, I'm unsure if this will happen. Going to keep my fingers crossed...! The distance from everything around here will help me clear my mind. Hopefully. After work, I think I'm going to shop for phones. Finally got it through to my mother that renewing the contract and getting a new phone isn't going to charge her any more money (since I'll be paying for the phone), so I can shop! After looking around previously, I thought the G1 was pretty good, but I'm with AT&T. ::grumbles:: I'm not about to get the iPhone if it forces me to get the data plan, which my mother will definitely not agree to since that's an extra $30 monthly, ouch. Will see, however, if it's worth it. Shopping's shopping, don't have to buy anything yet! Wednesday Thankful Three1. Dried blueberries. 2. Phone shopping trip after work. 3. Kimi ♥!!! Coworker gave me directions to the Brea mall, now that I know how to get there, I have a new mall to peruse! Yes, I have no sense of direction. Fun times.
It's over! Long weekend over! It was fun while it lasted, a bit painful in the head, but fun nonetheless. The minor conflicts within the group and the bitter feelings all dissipated now that it's all over. Thank you to the Hwang's for putting up with us and feeding us all! *_* I learned an important lesson about living with people. I mean, living as in accepting people into your life and working together with them to accomplish a greater goal. I've worked alone thus far, and boy is the road difficult and lonely. Now, there are people all around. No relationship is without arguments and conflicts, life is not a crystal apple (ala Love Generation), but it is a windy nature path. It's not easy to embrace others into your life, but it's even harder to walk that road alone, I've learned. I thank God everyday that I have friends and for reuniting with my family. Life is brimming with the potential for happiness, all we need to do it look. Accept it, it's there already. Shut your eyes and open your mind. There's a wonderful sound to be heard on every corner. In other news, Daisaku's Hyakka Seiran track is HORRENDOUS. Love you but, good GRACIOUS! Are you TRYING to kill us?
Listening to: "Poisoning Pigeons in the Park" - Tom Lehrer Can someone shoot me in the head now? Ensemble practice makes me want to slam my head inside the piano so at least my brains will splatter somewhere I like. Okay no, that's gross. Augh, headache. Tonight's location had too much reverb, no good when there's a mass of MESS. DISCORD!!! Help. ::cries:: I'm convinced that discordant noise lowers my mood considerably, as I really should be in a decent state tonight. But no. I drove home alone listening to my music, trying to repair my brain, but I feel like crying. No good at all. One last rehearsal tomorrow, then the actual recording. Then, perhaps, no more of this depressant. I love music, I love instruments, I love duets, triplets, quartets, and maybe even quintets, but any more than that? SHOOT ME. Damn I'm emo. :P
Listening to: "Oh My Love" - Ishikawa Hideo Today, we celebrate another awesome musician's birthday. Happy Birthday to Johann Sebastian Bach!Born in 1685 and lived until the age of 65, Bach is too amazing for my words. A composer, a devout Christian, a virtuoso, a father, and a teacher. I'm no expert on this man, but hey HAPPY BIRTHDAY!! We're still loving your music over 250 years later! The Baroque style just wouldn't be the same without you. X3 Tonight is the first of our last practice ensemble rehearsals. I am *so* beat, my head aches, my shoulders ache, my brain's dead. ("Byakudan Yuugi" is on, you can't blame me for being dead when Tomomasa is crooning at me.) I think I'm getting nervous again. Work today was similarly tiring. This week has certainly been one of the busiest I've had thus far. Le sigh! (Gaaah Gabriel, do you know how long it took to get that OUT of my vocabulary???) Long week, long weekend to come. Hope we all survive this weekend, and I hope I can survive the coming week..... So why am I awake? Oh, right, my hair is dripping wet. Kimi is home, and their Three Tenors are singing this Sunday too. I want to be there too, but wah, we're recording too! Save me a DVD, I'll buy one ne!! ^____^
Listening to: "Omae to iu Hidamari" - Seki Tomokazu Plug: ACER Netbook Aspire One (Blue) 8.9" Intel Atom N270 1GB RAM 120GB Hard Drive Webcam 802.11G Wireless 2.19lbs Windows XP HOMEI want that. Or the 16gb iTouch for the same price. Want, but do not need. I just thought it would be nice to make one big purchase before the tax rates go up to 9.25%. I even went to Fry's yesterday to try to convince myself to buy something, but what did I do? I walked out with $0.99 index cards. Yup. I'm a massive failure at shopping. I also saw a Lenovo laptop, very similar, for approximately $50 more. VERY CUTE! No SD card slot. Orders are trickling in slowly... I suspect that by the end of this weekend, I will be over and done with Christmas songs for at least a month. Three days in a row will our TOFU ensemble have to play that Christmas medley. Oh and, Kimi, would you kill me if I uploaded our "Oh Come, Oh Come, Emmanuel" to YouTube? 8D Because I upped it already but nobody knows about it. I look so dreadfully bored or something, but Kimi SQUISHY♥!! Flautists = ♥!!! X3 "Hatsukoi yo Natsu Arashi ni nare" is love. When will my OTP perform this live? They should be married, really! Naokun, you promised me... even though it was only in my dream!!! ::SHOT:: I should designate a song everyday as the LOVE SONG OF THE DAY or something. ::laughs:: Thursday Thankful Three1. "PRECIOUS" is precious. 2. Miyatacchi♥Naokun forever. 3. "Pavane pour une infante défunte" flute solo. Someday, I will have to learn the pavane entirely, not just the accompaniment. Dance too! Alas, hard! I can't sight read the damn thing! Wikipedia has the piece on piano at the bottom, and listening to it makes me melty. Oh, I wish Tsuchiura would play it in Corda too so I could hear Okada Masaru play it *_*! A Liszt pianist performing Ravel, ah, delicious!
Listening to: “雪降る街のCeremony” - Hirakawa Daisuke Plug: Darwin’s Pianist Wife Influenced Theories: Discovery News(Oops, I forgot to link it when I pasted over.)Interesting article, read it. Ahh, gotta love music. I’m having an explosion of music love tonight, from Chopin to Naokun. ♥ Even OnoD was fun to watch. Unfortunately, no Granrodeo or 2Hearts for me, sad! I want to watch and listen to those awesome boys!!! And this song expresses absolute Love. It is my impossible dream. Someday, one day, I hope the man I love will sing that to me. Or, hey, maybe I’ll sing it to the other person and just hope they’ll marry me. ああ、夢の中で… Hiradai, keep smiling, always! ♥ Cosplay rambling time! Before I start yammering at wanting a Bernard for myself, I best get my own Bernard costume compiled first. However, Yunoki is my priority!! Too bad I can’t cosplay Tsuchiura, or…? I’m not tall enough, but am I buff enough for him? XD Not passionate enough at my playing either! I want a passionate, manly Tsuchiura mmm, now *that* I’d dig. ::laughs:: Yunoki into Tsuchiura, that’s new. Since I can’t have my OTP for cosplay, I’ll settle for weirdness? XD HOW ABOUT SHIMIZU??? Then we could sing “Sotto Voce” and make everyone’s ears bleed put everyone to sleep! Alas, we don’t have a Shimizu… That and my Shimizu would make a better Yunoki, not that he would ever consent.Wednesday Thankful Three1. Music = ♥ 2. Naokun = squishy adorable ♥ 3. Chipotle = stomach ♥ I think I’m getting sick… Guess whose birthday is on Saturday? ^_~
Listening to: "Pale Repetition" - Morita Masakazu Plug: 徒然なるイトケンの日々 - 祭りの後Oh my goodness, ITOUKEN AND MOGI, YOU GUYS!! XDDDD Ohhhhh you two are TOO CUTE IN MATCHING black and white outfits??? They're being Yunoki combi? LOL YUNOKI COMBI. Oh. Kimi. Did they sing "W-BREEZE" or "W-BLIZZARD" again? X3 Gosh, I'm spazzing out at work. I don't think adding Itouken's blog to my rss feed was a good thing because I'm so flippy. Durfffff! And a Mogi song is playing. How typical of him to stalk my brainwaves. XP Better than a certain Arashi I know as of now, harumph!
Listening to: "PRECIOUS" - Morita Masakazu OMG MOGI LOVES ME HE SUNG "PRECIOUS" OMG OMG OMG HE SUNG IT AS I REQUESTED OMG I'M BURSTING WITH INSANE SPARKLES AND OMG I CAN'T WAIT UNTIL THE DVD COMES OUT MOGI I I I AHHHHHHHH THANK YOUUUUUUUUUUU!!!!!!! AND OF COURSE THANK YOU JANEE FOR PASSING MY MESSAGE TO HIM!!!!!
Shopping yesterday ended rather interestingly. I bought dark green hair dye because it was 50% off. Mmm, Tsuchiura green, I mean, what? ^_^ After process of elimination, I'm pretty sure my stomachache was caused by meat not cooked properly from lunch, and I was tossing and turning all night until 7am. What's worse is that I can't eat anything solid today. My body seems to be telling me I have food poisoning, as I'm craving oatmeal when I would normally avoid it. I hope my uncle has oatmeal in their house!! Argh. Okay, enough about my digestive system. Today is a slow day, but that's okay because it's FRIDAY! Friday Thankful Three1. See's Candy chocolate truffles. 2. Tea now, and more tea later at bible study! 3. Nails. (See below.)  Cynthia did my nails yesterday. I'm aware that my nails are short and I have funny hands, but YAY SHINY! Talk about easily distracted.
Cemetery Dance will be released on the 12th of May, 2009! That's exactly two months away! I'm so excited! Until then, I have Mount Dragon and The Ice Limit to hold me off, if I find the time to read, that is. ::facepalm:: Still, the wait will be over soon. More Aloysius Pendergast, and maybe some Diogenes too, for me! Time to start stalking the library reserve list... Ironically, I feel like shopping today. For what and why, I haven't a clue. In news of Seki's Cosmo-X production, I'm massively estatic, to put it bluntly. I'm also hopeful that the Corda music book might surface, ahaha, but until then, we can't talk too much about it Kimi or we'll both explode. Tomorrow is Friday the 13th. I've never seen it as a special day, for better or for worse, but nevertheless, most people call it "Black Friday" and associate it with bad luck. Tomorrow is the 2nd of three 13ths landing on a Friday this year. I don't know about everyone else, but I'm looking forward to it! TGIF as always! Due to Ryan's incessant babble about horoscopes and astrology lately, I've been revisiting it too. I think it's interesting how the alignment of the stars affects each individual's inclinations, however, I also believe in free will. Believing in those theories 100% is just as good as dooming oneself to plunging towards an uncontrollable, one-way course to a predetermined death. Fate, unmei. How much of destiny do you believe in, and how much do you think you can control your own fate? Always tread carefully on these dangerous grounds, my friends.
Listening to: "LOVE" - Tsujitani Kouji I feel a bit invigorated from Sabbath. I can breathe, whew. My plan totally fell through, I mean, what exactly is the point of all that mental preparation when my efforts were nullified? Am I Yunoki singing "Sweet Secret?" Kimi ga iru????While I'm irritated at my mother's yelling about my curfew yet again (because her reasoning is so faulty, I mean, so what if there's more unemployed people? Are unemployed people going to chase moving cars at night?), I am delighted to hear her say that she heard from my uncle that he wants me out of his house at 11pm. REALLY NOW? She hasn't been talking to her sister lately I know, so the only way she would know is... SHE talked to HIM?? REALLY??? Even if that means Alvin and I both get chewed out, THEY ACTUALLY TALKED TO EACH OTHER? Give me a moment to shout please, PRAISE GOD!!!!!!!!!! If I keep testing the waters with my mother and unfortunately involving my uncle in the matter, does that mean they'll talk more? XD It's working, it's working! I'm not employing the healthiest method, obviously, but hey, it's working! Honestly, I shouldn't be so happy. I'm causing quite a deal of stress for them, aren't I? ::beams:: Still, I feel accomplished. It's been way too many years, this cold war needs to end. Please keep praying with me. Tsujitani-san's english is really funny in this song. Hora hora, here's what he sung: I was born to love you
My love's forever
I will keep giving true loveThat's not what I heard! XD
Today seemed like a good day for contemplations, and so I did just that. Unfortunately, it took a toll on me. In thinking about the meaning life, one looks inward and outward simultaneously, trying to grasp the universe with one's limited mind. Obviously, it baffled me more than anything, but I did think about a few concepts. Freedom and liberty, on which this country's foundation is based, and the pursuit of happiness. Truth and beauty, glancing at each other while going hand in hand, and last but definitely not the least, love. Upon these ideals do we, even serial murderers, base their lives. There are certainly warped interpretations of these, but I think we all strive to attain and mold them into our lives, someway somehow. Because of the way I think, I try to make sense of these concepts in my own life through a microscope. After years and years of formulating my standards, principles, and character, I am human afterall and continue to change with time and circumstances. How would I take each of these and apply it to my daily life? In gaining independence comes freedom and liberty, yet so many neglect the responsibility that comes with it. Freedom comes at a price, as does all things in life, and nobody is exempt from it. Even a fool has to realize that at some point. Pursuing happiness has always been a romantic ideal throughout history, and while we all seek it, is there ever a definite "happiness" that is true for everyone? Are smiling and laughing symptoms of happiness, or are those just our perceptions of what happiness should look like? Perhaps it is overly negative of me to think that those are mere facades. I could as easily don a smile and laugh even when I'm severely unhappy. It would be silly of me to try to cover this topic in one short post, but I will conclude that pursuing happiness is not futile yet it will be forever sought out until the day one ceases to live, which brings me to the next concepts. Is it not true that someday we will inevitably die and, perhaps, even be forgotten? Yet, I say beauty walks hand in hand with truth, because we are living the truth of life, and it is the brevity of life and what one makes of it that is the utmost expression of true beauty. And what makes life beautiful? Love. As a movie once said, "Love is like oxygen," and nothing can live without it. Nothing can exist without love, it is the very essence of life, of everything under the skies, and even these abstract ideals. Ah, I cannot imagine a world without love, "For God so loved the world that he gave His only begotten Son, so that we shall not perish but have everlasting life." How can I possibly apply all that into my own miniscule life, when I am less than a grain of sand? To think that somebody out there would love and care for someone so insignificant as I, it gives hope and vision into the grandeur of these ideals. I am prone to circular logic when it comes to the dark side of life, so why not delve into the light? To discover that life is worth living because these ideals are not beyond our grasp, is that not wonderful? Then so, why can I not rise above myself and be filled with light instead of this miserable state I'm in? Why indeed. In so, I'm resigning myself to a social hiatus until I can clear my mind. I have a lot of personal decisions I need to make, which is no excuse, so I apologize ahead of time for withdrawing further into my sanctuary. I've been acting like a fool lately, for which I must ask for forgiveness from those I dare not ask directly. My behaviour is inexcusable, and I will try my best to be a better person.
Okay, because I didn't post on Sunday, and since I have one more birthday to append today... On March 1st, HAPPY BIRTHDAY to~~~» Frederic Chopin » Kanazawa Hiroto *___* To my beloved Chopin and to my onesdoIreally beloved sensei, HAPPY BIRTHDAAAAY!! Kimi and I celebrated in small but meaningful ways, from a few of us playing Chopin pieces at church and afterwards on Saturday, to "Voice of My Soul" rendition of the "Revolutionary Etude," and to discussion! And of course, for my our dearly beloved Kanayan sensei, songs, loads of Ishikawa goodness, and good thoughts. Mmm, fizzout! Then today, KUSC alerted me to one more birthday I missed... Happy Birthday to Antonio Vivaldi!"Four Seasons," anybody? ::laughs:: This would be his 331st year, wow. Here's to an awesome composer and violinist and priest ala Bonnie, may our day be filled with strings, strings, and more strings! Sheep guts! Mmm... I digress.
Listening to: "An Ocean of Memories" - TitanicI still smell like shrimp after showering. Thanks, Voldemort you-know-who. Looking back, as bitter as I was about the separation, it taught me long suffering and perseverance. Now, I can full reap the joys of recovering that which was lost. Not to be weird or anything, but I LOVE YOU SO MUCH YOU DON'T UNDERSTAND!!! So I'll keep my emotional account out of his reach, but I still want to share how much this means to me somehow. We both understand it without spoken words as, oddly enough, with so many years apart, we are alike in so many ways. Thank God for this interesting coincidence? Thicker than water, indeed. Omae wa ore no taisetsuna mono!!! No, not meant to be weird at all. So much for a coherent entry. Smelling like shrimp is distracting me like crazy. OH AND HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO~~~ - Yesterday: Mommy Hasegawa - Today: Kimi ♥♥♥ - Today: Terence - Today: Kris Happy birthday to you March babies!! ^0^
I'm stealing memes again, ahoy! 21 Questions1. My ex... is nonexistant. 2. Maybe I should... stop micromanaging my life. 3. I love... God. 4. People would say that I'm... quite fanatical. 5. I don't understand... how anyone would prefer not to think. ::CRINGE:: 6. When I wake up in the morning... I try to squeeze in a few more minutes of sleep. 7. I lost... my sanity once at the end of 6th grade. 8. Life is full of... messages from God. 9. My past is... painful. 10. I get annoyed when... I fall short of my expectations. 11. Parties are... rare. 12. I wish... I could make someone truly happy. 13. Dogs... are love. 14. Cats... remind me of Kanayan. 15. Tomorrow... isn't Friday, woes! 16. I have low tolerance for... inappropriate immaturity. 17. If I had a million dollars... I would spend a lot of time allocating it properly. 18. I'm totally terrified... of going insane. 19. My spouse... is currently a fictional half-Saiyan. ♥ 20. My life... has a special happy sparkle in it. 21. My motto... is to know thyself inside out. That was a nice interlude in my work day.
In an email from Irene, here is a wonderful list for happiness.  What a great list of daily reminders.
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